The Squad Leader (Erwin x Reader)
“She is so sweet Levi. I mean, she is just so caring about everyone, but if you bitch about her behind her back, she can beat even your ass!” I was telling Levi, as he sat on the couch on the opposite side of the room.
“For fucks sake Erwin! Tell her! I’m sick of hearing all of this shit.” If she doesn’t like you, then get over it! You’ve dealt with titans, death, staying up ‘till 5 am every night, but you aren’t man enough to tell someone you have a crush on them? You really are fucking strange as hell.” He yelled at me before getting up, “And if you don’t do it by tonight, I’ll tell her about your crush on her myself.”
“At least I have someone who may become my lover.” I whispered to myself, but he heard me.
“ Haha! You’re wrong buddy boy. Remember cadet Jenny? Well, let’s just say we fuck most nights. So, I think I’m not alone anymore!” He laugh-yelled while going to open my door.
“Is that why she didn’t show up for training for like a week? And is that why she ended up in the infirmary because someone thought that she seriously injured herself due to all of the bruises?” I asked the shorter man.
“Fucking yea! I was laughing my ass off when she told me about the infirmary story. About her not showing up for training that one week, umm let's just say that she was a virgin, but she told me she wasn’t, so I may have fucked her a little too hard. She had to stay in my room. It was terrible. But from that day forward, all that fucking has been out of this damn world!!” He yelled, waving his arms up in the air and spinning before he ran out of the door and down the hallway.
“God damn you Levi!! I fucking hate you sometimes!!” I yelled out the door before I turned around and almost hit you in the head.
“Oh! I am so sorry Commander Erwin! I was just on my way to Hanji’s to drop off these papers.” She said while saluting.
She dropped most of the papers, and turned around to pick them up.
I should’ve helped, but I couldn’t stop staring at her magnificent ass.
“Nice ass Squad Leader (Y/n)!! Oh, and Commander Erwin, you should stop staring at it, because it's kinda weird!!!” One of the brats from the 3rd year recruits said before hauling ass down the hallway.
They weren't fast enough. I ran after them at lightspeed and tackled him to the ground, hard.
Then I whispered in his ear before rising to my feet, “You’ll regret ever doing this bud. And don’t even comment on her again. Now you have 3 weeks of stable duty. Leave before I alter this deal any further.”
I reached my feet and strode back to my office, to where you were.
“Squad Leader (Y/n), I wanted to talk to you, in my office.” I say as I motion into my office.
“Uhh, ok.” She said as she picked up the last paper and walked into my office.
As she sat down, I closed the door behind me, making her jump a little. Was she scared of me? I sat down in my chair. Now there was only a desk separating us.
“I wanted to talk to you about something that has been on my mind lately.” I said before continuing, “I may have been contracting some, more than friends, feelings for you.”
She looked at me with dull eyes. Then, to my surprise, she held out her hand. Palm up, open.
“Uhh?” Was the only thing that came out of my mouth as I stared at her.
“Useless paper. Give it to me.” She stated.
I rummaged around my room, looking for what she demanded. Damn! Why were there only useful papers! Finally, I found a blank piece of paper.
“Here!” I said as I handed her the piece of paper, and a pen.
She only grabbed the paper and started to crumple it up.
“What are you-” I started to wonder before she rose from her seat, and threw it at me. Hard, like a baseball player.
It smacked me right in the eye. Perfect.
“Ow!” I exclaimed.
She walked over and stared at me. “That’s for taking so damn long to ask me out! Like holy shit! I’ve been waiting for 3 years!!!” She said before reaching down and making sure that I was ok.
“Wait? What?” I asked as I leaned back in my chair, shocked.
“Ya. I’ve had a crush on your for 3 years!! And you never even talked to me for 2 of them. And I kinda noticed that you took interest in me, a little while back.” She said while getting up to wet a part of her shirt in the bathroom (there's a door connecting the office to the bathroom, as well as his bedroom).
“So, does this mean we are dating now?” I asked the shorter girl as she came over and held part of her shirt onto my, now swollen, eye.
Damn. I could see her nice curves and her stomach while she had her shirt pulled up.
“Sure!” She said as she kissed my eye, “There, now it looks better at least.”
I got up and kissed her. She hesitated only for a moment, before she eased into it.
“BAM!!” we both jumped.
The door to my office was wide open, and there were two culprits standing in my doorway, with very guilty looks on their faces.
“God dammit Shitty Glasses! Did you seriously have to open the door like a fucking battering ram? You do realize that the damn door was unlocked right?!” Levi was yelling towards Hanji, as they both stood in the doorway.
“Were you guys listening to us the whole time?” I asked as I noted the stethoscope that Hanji had in her right hand.
“Commander Erwin, how long has your crush on me been going on? And did you tell them about it?” She asked me curiously.
“For one, just call me Erwin, unless we are around a bunch of the cadets, or at least until we tell everyone. And this crush has been going on for about 4 years. I never talked to you because… I was nervous, and besides, I wasn’t a commander back then. So, I guess I figured that I wasn’t worthy of your love. And for the last question, yes. I did tell both of them. They are my closest friends, and they actually encouraged me to tell you. Levi threatened to tell you that I like you, if I didn’t do it by today. So… ya. That’s about it.” I said as I forgot about the two standing near the door, now making themselves comfortable on my couches.
I sat down on one of the couches. (Y/n) sat down beside me. Levi, Hanji and I talked about news, our lives, really anything. (Y/n) piped in every once in awhile, but I could tell that it had been a long day for her, but I didn’t realize how late it was.
You laid your head down on my lap and stretched out like a cat on the rest of the couch. Your face was facing my stomach, but I didn’t mind.
“Night Erwin.” You said into my shirt before you fell asleep.
“Night (Y/n).” I said back.
“Damn. Jenny would never do that to me.” Levi said as he stretched.
“Well, I think the only reason she’s doing this right now is due to one of two things. 1, she is just very tired and I am the only comfortable thing to sleep on, or 2, because she knows that I’m not going to use her for a fuck buddy. I mean, that doesn’t suggest that we won’t have sex later on down the road. As for now, she just feels really comfortable around me I guess.” I stated proudly.
You moved your arm out from under your head and held up two fingers while murmuring “two” into my shirt, which you clutched tightly to your forehead.
“Well, I think that settles that.” Hanji said after Levi shook her awake.
“I suppose I should go to bed, as well as you two.” I said as I slowly maneuvered around her form to escort my friends out.
“Goodnight Erwin!” Hanji said as she walked away.
“Have fun.” Levi said as he repeatedly raised and lowered his eyebrows at me.
“You bastard! Did you not hear anything I said? ‘Later on down the road’!” I told him before he left.
There was only one thing to do. I could take you to your room, but that was 3 stories up and all the way across the HQ.
“Fuck.” I said under my breath.
I picked you up and walked into my room (just off of my office). I placed you on my bed and locked the door, just as I do every night. I got undressed and brushed my teeth. When I left the bathroom, I noticed another pair of pants laying on the floor. They weren’t mine.
“(Y/n)? Are you awake?” I asked as I turned on the bedside lamp and got under the covers with you.
You rolled over to look at me. I reached out to push a piece of your hair back behind your ear, but your eyes went wide and you shied away, almost falling off of the bed.
“(Y/n)? What’s wrong? Are we moving too fast?” I asked as you got up and turned on your bedside lamp, and sat on top of the covers.
“No. I… When you reached for my face it reminded me of something. I have never told anyone this before, but my father used to hit me when I did something wrong or when he was mad. I’m sorry. It isn’t your fault.” She said.
“I understand. I won’t touch you again.” I sighed as I almost turned off the lamp.
“NO!!” She exclaimed before continuing, “No. I want you to hold me, and touch me, and love me, so I can remember what that feels like. You have no idea how long I’ve wanted you to hug me, or to kiss me, and I just had to fuck it up.” She said while coming over to me, straddling me.
“Ok.” I said as I kissed her on the lips and ran my hands down her sides.
She shivered but stayed still. This must’ve been frightening for her, but I would never hurt her.
“You know that I would never touch you in means of hurting you right?” I said as I broke the kiss and looked her in the eyes.
“I know. I just got worried, and the way you reached out your hand… it just reminded me of my father.” She said as she pecked me on the lips.
She yawned, and then I yawned in response.
“You’re sleepy.” I said, and pulled her off of me and held onto her comfortably.
Her hands were on my bare chest, mine were on her back. Her head was placed near my collarbone while mine was above her head. Our legs entangled.
“Erwin?” She said quietly as I turned off the lamps.
“Hmm?” I hummed back.
“I love you. I always have, and I always will. And I only threw that piece of paper at you because I planned it out over the years.” She said while getting more comfortable against my chest.
I smiled and hugged her closer.
“I love you too, and probably more! And you are an asshole. ” I said laughing while she poked me in the ribs.
“Fine, fine! We both love each other the same and you aren't an asshole!” I said before we both fell into a wonderful dreamland.